Having great inspirations, and people making an imprint on your life are the greatest feelings in the world. I speak from experience, past and present, since a lot of my peers have all that for me, to keep me grounded and give me hope for the future.
Neil deGrasse Tyson quoted “Passion is what gets you through the hardest times that might otherwise make strong men weak, or make you give up.” In my opinion, that means that you have to put a lot of effort in whatever you do in your life, whether it be career, love or anything else that makes you succeed, and having someone who has made such a huge impact on your life that can definitely shape and mold you to become unstoppable.
I worked hard to be where I am in my life and I’ve had a lot of challenges thrown my way, obstacles I had to face head on, and I had to find loopholes to work my way out of them to be a free spirited woman. I am not a complicated person but there are only a few things that keep me grounded: Music, Creative Arts, Family, last but not least my Future Career/Personal Life when I get much older and finally start understanding what it’s like to be successful and life the life I want to live, not by following rules and having a dictator telling me how to do things a certain manner. Had I not had any of those I mentioned, I would be a lost soul and just want to give up on myself.
Something that goes hand in hand with music is depression and it’s an evil master that not only grips your mind and makes you doubt your sanity, but takes your heart as well and makes you feel as if you are unworthy. What I’ve learned over the years is that you have to fight the darkness with light, and make sure that you don’t go down a dark path of hatred and guilt that someone could have saved you, and you turned your cheek and ignored them. There were times when I went to others when I needed help and they would ignore me at times and when I sunk to my dark place, they finally saw that I wasn’t kidding around and really needed saving, which they did so and I am now out of the darkness and into the light.
Instead of turning to drugs and alcohol to make me feel better, I use my music, and creative talents to good use, that I can accomplish whatever I set my mind to and the end results are priceless. It’s hard for me to open up to new people at first, but once I’ve warmed up to them and we strike up conversations that I am fond of, you should see my eyes light up like a light bulb. It’s like I get a twinkle in my eyes when I speak about something I’m so passionate about and I can talk about it for hours on end. I’m not really into being with a big group of people, but show me any type of creative thing like music and anything artistic, you have given me your full attention and it’s an amazing feeling.
I’ve always tried to follow in someone’s footsteps growing up, but it was hard to keep up, and I decided to be my own person and independant by doing what I want to make myself known, happy and accomplish what I have started from the beginning and once I complete it all, no one can stop me from going further. I guess what I’m trying to say is that no matter how life is and how hard things may get for you, make sure to pick yourself off the floor and sweep all the negative away for good, and people will see a huge change in your attitude and appearance. Trust me, I speak from past experienes in my life and I have gone through so much that I now know what signs to look out for and who I can trust.
One day when I have the courage to fight my own battles and seek the darkness instead of the light, I will be better at peace with myself. Instead of going to talk to a therapist about my issues, which would cost a lot of money and waste my time I don’t have, I rather focus on my writing, my music and admiration to those who want to see what goes on in my life. Writing about what I love and those who have helped me along the way are what get me by to be alive. I’m so grateful to have some awesome people in my life that have helped me through my darkness, and when I need someone to talk to about whatever is on my mind, there’s always someone I can reach out to, doesn’t matter what time it is.
There’s a “old but newly discovered” group I have finally gotten a chance to see in concert this summer, a week before my 31st birthday on July 19th,2017 and that band is Avenged Sevenfold who opened up for Metallica and I fell in love with them and their music and their thoughtful words they mentioned to their fans that “No matter who you lost in your life, they will always watch out for you and wait for you on the other side.” I think what Matt Shadows meant by those words was that 7 years ago when they were last here in Montreal,Quebec right after Jimmy “The Rev” Sullivan passed away, they were afraid to play again because it’s what marked their career change, and the Montreal fans changed that for the better.
These talented guys have put so much effort in their work and write such powerful lyrics that speak from the heart and I can totally relate to them in different ways. Some of their funny songs make you wonder “what the hell were they thinking when they wrote those words” and I know for a fact that the fans can give them great feedback and put a smile on their faces. Every artist and band I support, I love seeing the satisfaction they put for every show and give it their all. Don’t forget, all these artists started out as everyday people with a goal to become successful. It didn’t happen overnight. To become that you have to work your way up to the top because wouldn’t it suck if it was just handed to you on a silver platter without putting in the blood, sweat and tears to make it great? Think about it…