Life as we know it!

“Don’t keep living your life in the “what if’s” because it will only make matters worse. Live in the “right now” and look how far you’ve gotten in your life” ~Sarah Jolin~

Have you ever woke up one morning and wondered what your life will turn out to be? I ask myself that question all the time and I still seek answers to this day.  There are so many people in the world who seek one special thing they want to keep close to their heart, and others that are lost souls just wanting to be loved and feel secured. I’ve experienced so much in my life that I find time is so precious and we should hold on to every moment, because you never know when it will all just crumble in your hands, and there’s nothing you can do to prevent it from happening.

People take things for granted and expect things to just be handed on a silver platter, but when that happens, they’re not satisfied and then they want more, and they’re still not happy. There will always be negative people in your life to push you down just because their life is terrible and you have the good life. Someone once told me that you just have to tune those negative people out and focus on what’s in front of you. There’s definitely one thing that I’ve gained in my life that I hold precious to my heart and that has opened up my mind to endless possibilities.

I’ve always been quite the observer and see people’s reactions towards others and wonder what it’s like to be in their shoes and live their daily lives. What fascinates me the most are a few musicians that I admire and follow along on social media and how they interact to their fans all around the world. If I’ve learned one thing from them is that they are regular day people, just have a more challenging life to live because they have to stay away from the crazy people, paparazzi, and just try to have a normal life when they’re not  touring.

There’s a famous quote that I can for sure relate to by Steve Jobs .
He said “Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it.” What I can say to that is do what you love to do, work hard and make sure it’s worth while because there could be one day you wake up and you don’t feel happy anymore. I have been at my job for almost 8 years now, this coming August and I have settled in it. After close to an 11+ year hiatus of academics, I am now going back to school at 30 years old and taking a really fun course in Hotel Reception that I know I will succeed in long-term, because I know once I finish it and do something abroad, I will be ecstatic about and may never want to leave it. Who knows, I may be booking some fun celebrities and bands heading to a hotel wherever my heart lies and I apply to anywhere in the world.

It’s funny how life works in mysterious ways because you can have the best time of your life and enjoy it to the fullest, or you can have something tragic and your life falls apart, and there’s no one who can save you but yourself. You have to make sure you have positive people surrounding you to keep your body and mind alive and just enjoy it. Don’t take things for granted, take things one day and step at a time and watch out for whatever is thrown your way to prevent it from happening. You can never have the “perfect life” because there is no such thing as perfection. Everyone has their flaws and knows how to hide them. We just have to learn how to be ourselves around others and not show any falseness and let people see the real you.

Sometimes it’s easy to feel like you’re the only one in the world who’s struggling, who’s frustrated, or unsatisfied at barely getting by. But, that feeling is a lie and if you just hold on; just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find the way and make it all okay. Because we all need a little help sometimes, someone to help us hear the music in the world. To remind us that it won’t always be this way. That someone is out there, and that someone will find you.

I will leave you all with one last quote and question to answer yourselves and see what you can come up with.
 “There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up.”


Music and fighting for a cure!!!

Okay, I’ve been thinking, you know when you think everything is going great in your life, you feel like you are on top of the world, and for one split second, one small thing triggers it, and it all crumbles to the ground and you fall apart!!!! Well, we all feel that way all the time and as much as you want to be the fixer of it all everyone tells you to give it time and space for the person to reflect on their actions towards the other person, and you, as the victim, have to find everything in your power to keep yourself occupied while you wait.

I have done some research  about how music can detect a persons moods, ability to do something, and it also helps fight depression because the difference between the sound and lyrics to songs can truly define a person on how they connect to the artist on what went through their minds while writing their songs. I truly believe that people can stop depression and clear their minds on the negative things that they go through in their daily lives.

If everyone can take time out of their hectic schedules and find a way to relax or meditate for 30 minutes a day to clear their minds, they will feel so much better about themselves and the people in their lives. I found a quote on a website that says “music helps you express your emotions. It’s melodic encouragement that helps you let go of suppressed feelings. A study published in the British Journal showed that music is cathartic, especially drumming. You didn’t need a medical study to prove that. You discovered that yourself when you were a 4 year-old banging on your mothers pots and pans.” What my opinion on that to me means that depending on the song, it can surely affect your mood by how the beats are in the way the drummer helped out in the song.

I guess what I am trying to say is that no matter what is going on in your life, do not let the negative side affect it. Think of the positive, make a change in the world and make a statement to say that you are alive and well and here on earth for a reason. Everyone in the world is here for a purpose in life to do what they will be happy and remember when its their time to go. I have been known to be a great inspiration to people and even though I am battling my own demons, per say, I still find a way to find something that will make me feel great like music, song-writing, anything entertainment and learning the acoustic guitar to keep me feel relaxed and at ease.

To find out more information on music and depression, here is one link I have mentioned to look for further details. If you would like to know a lot more, please feel free to do some more in-depth research on music and depression. You may just get the answers that you are searching for.


Music & Friendships!

Main characters:

Sarah – Felicia
Kathy – Shauna
Vera – Charlotte
Adam – Markus
Cale – Theo
Sean – Jace

Chapter 1

It was a cold and snowy winter day in late December and I had been listening to some of my favorite bands on my Spotify playlist, while unwinding down after a long day of work and I stumbled upon 2 of my best bands of all time Art of Dying and Saint Asonia. I’ve always been great supporters of Markus and Theo for a very long time and one day, I started chatting with Shauna and I have been telling her that I am a huge fan of them and she asked me if I wanted to privately chat with the guys for a bit. I guess you can say it was a trial to see how I would react to them, even though I am a long-time fan of theirs.

That same night, very late I might add, Markus started talking to me and I hit it off with him right off the bat, so to speak, and I kept asking him questions about his music and what I know about him and the information I came up with really impressed him. A few hours went by and he told me he has a surprise guest for me to chat with. I patiently waited for a few minutes and then I got a funny greeting message. “Hello beautiful, this is the mystery man, we have met before and you find me very attractive. I know you have heard my music before because Markus can see what you play in your playlist. I find it very intriguing the selection of songs you have in your playlist and I am very happy to see you have both of our music in there. Thanks for being such a great supporter. So, enough of all this, do you know who this is, I know you do. I can feel it in my bones.”

I immediately private messaged Shauna and said “I might have an idea who it is but my guesses are always wrong.” She replied “Honey, I know you know who it is, just say it to him and he will be happy.” Off I go back in to our private group chat and I immediately scream out “THEOOOOOO, I knew it was you. It just took me a while to figure it out.”

“Hey beautiful, I didn’t get your name. If you don’t tell me, I’m gonna have to stick with this nickname.” “I’m Felicia, it’s a huge pleasure to meet you and Markus too, of course. I have been a fan of yours and Markus for a very long time and I will continue to support that for a very long time. I actually did meet you last year in the summertime and I was happily dragged by a friend of mine to meet your band-mates. Let’s just say since then, my whole life changed for the better and I couldn’t be happier.” As the night went on very late at this point, almost 2 a.m, we all had a great time and unfortunately, we had to get some sleep.

Chapter 2

Things went really well and smooth from our first chat that I got a special invitation from Shauna if I’d like to join our private group and meet other people who share the same thing as I do. I said to her “Shauna, are you kidding me? It’s an honor to be part of this amazing group of individuals that are amazing and 2 that I looked up to as a fan. I hope to meet more people in here so we can form a tight bond and friendship that share the passion of music and life.” She told me to wait a few minutes to talk to Markus and Theo to see if it’s alright to have an addition to the group, and they were thrilled to bits of excitement. Theo told Shauna “Felicia is such a great person with a bubbly personality and I know Markus and I will make her feel right at home so she won’t get nervous and freak out that she’d want to leave us”

About 2o minutes went by and I get a message from Shauna saying “Hey Felicia, look at your screen in about 30 seconds and you will see something pop up.” 30 seconds go by and I see another message “Hey Felicia, this is Markus. I’d like to personally invite you to join our private group, you will have a great time with all of us and be introduced to 2 more people whom you have never met before, and you’ll really enjoy them. They are personal friends of mine and will make you feel like yourself in no time. The first person is a really great friend of mine and Theo, his name is Jace. He can be a little intimidating at times but he has the coolest job known to mankind. If you’d like to know what he does, pretty soon you can chat with him to ask him any questions you have. My next friend whom is also a friend of Shauna, her name is Charlotte. She has the best and wildest personality and such a fun person to be around, when any of us feel down. She lifts our spirits up and we all share the most silliest things and get a kick out of it. Welcome to the group . Myself and Theo especially since you are so attracted to him as he called it, will be welcoming you with open arms and make sure you have the best time every night.”

A few weeks went by and when you realize how much time we’ve spent chatting every night, and very late at night too I might add, it was the new year, 2016, and Markus and Theo were on winter vacation from their touring. We spent so much time back and forth chatting and at some point being a little bit flirty, even though some of us didn’t realize it, ended up forming such a strong friendship and trusted each other that I would never betray their personal lives to others. Friday nights were the best every week because the guys would have poker nights with friends of theirs and we’d have some fun times chatting with them until the early hours of the next morning.

We would have such fun times talking about our favorite bands and musicians and critique them or their sound that we would have a blast and always post our favorites in a special group on social media. We never realize how much time goes by on certain nights because we all talk at the same time that we laugh so much until our stomachs hurt. I have opened up my music horizons to listen to more intense heavy metal and hard rock bands, all thanks to Markus and Theo for introducing me to their friends bands music. I’ve even shown some bands and artists that I listen too to the guys and they are very impressed. Some people think I just listen to pop, rock and country music. I do listen to a variety of music but never country, unless I live in hick-town and want to drown my sorrows into bluegrass or folklore which is so not in my catalog of music.

I love how music has a way of connecting people to each other. I find music defines the artist on the way they write and what goes on in their minds so they can share it with their audience every night. It gives us and them a sense of escapism, freedom, and also a way to relate to what the artist was thinking of while writing/singing their song(s). As a creative person, I have learned to share what people would really want to know, and still keep some things secretive. After all, it is your personal life and I would personally not want someone invading in my life and know every single thing that goes on in my daily life.

Chapter 3

A few months down the year and we are already in spring. I have made such a strong closeness with everyone in our group that I can confide in them to say whatever is on my mind, and they will keep it to themselves, without blabbing it on to others. I love this amazing friendship we’ve built and it continues to grow every night. I now have funny and cute nicknames that I have given to all of them. Markus is the protector and now sleeping beauty, Theo is booty shaker and now fiery dragon (don’t ask lol), Charlotte is sexy mamma, Shauna is now queen (of the group), and Jace is now my savior.

Had it not been for this amazing group and individuals, I would not be this amazing, bubbly, full of energy, funny and fun-loving spirited woman I am today, if I never got to pursue my dreams I’ve been shying away from my entire life and “tearing down the walls” to break free and say to “let me live my life” the way I want people to remember me when it’s my time to go.

Sidenote – I promise to keep everyone here updated as our friendship grows and continue on the chapters, as the months go by.



My Musical Inspirations Part 3!

Hey everyone, welcome to 2016. Sorry for the long delay since my last blog. I was very busy with work, the holidays and getting back on track with my health and new projects in the making. I have finally gathered the courage to write my own music because one day in my life, I want the ones who have inspired me to take a look at what I’ve been going through and thank them for saving my life and letting me in their lives, per-say and get a better understanding of what I was going through growing up and relate to them. After all, we are all human and go through the same things in life. Let’s face it, no one in this world is perfect. We all make mistakes in our lives and work through them to get better and be stronger at what we have accomplished and feel proud at the end results.

My first song is not finished yet because I have been extremely busy and multi-tasking finding some inspiration from some artists & bands whom I have looked up to for a long time and they have all given me some great advice on how to write and what to look for so the listeners can relate. I cannot give too much away about it but what I can say is that the meaning of my first song is facing your fears in the unknown and having a guardian angel guiding you to the right path in life, no matter what you’re going through.My first song does sound dark at the beginning, but towards the end of it, the listeners get an answer that whoever is/was helping me out, they did a great job. I find that music defines a person on the way they write and what goes on in their minds.

I’m musically creative and have been playing the piano since I was 4 years old. I’m almost 30 now and I’m finally opening up my possibilities to learn a new instrument, aside from the piano and that one is the guitar. I’ve always had a dream that one day I’d be willing to gather up the courage and take lessons and enjoy it. I have already started taking my first guitar lesson on February 16th, 2016 and I am so happy that my teacher, Tavis Stanley (Art of Dying guitarist) said to me that I am already more advanced than all his students he has taught. I already have plenty of music knowledge from my prior piano lessons growing up, so it is going to be a fun experience now starting on the guitar and learning the fretting, chord progressions, etc. I’ve had a lot of great chances to meet my favorite bands I admire and that have given me the inspiration to do what I’ve always wanted to do.

The first band I’m talking about is a Canadian bands from Vancouver, BC called Art of Dying. I got to meet them and chat with them on a deeper level and gave each other feedback on music. Their lead singer Jonny Hetherington, lead guitarist Tavis Stanley, bass player Cale Gontier and drummer Jeff Brown all told me some great words of wisdom to go after what I want to do and never give up, no matter what I’m going through. These 4 amazingly talented guys write music because they love it and have a passion to, not because it’s an obligation. Their powerful lyrics send out a message to their fans and Die Hards to go after their dreams and work your butt off and all that hard work will pay off.

Adam and Cale are both cousins that are really close. The second band I admire so much is Adams band, Saint Asonia who is also a Canadian band formed in Toronto, Ontario, and they both hold a special place in my heart. Back on July.31st,2015 Adam Gontier (lead singer, rhythm guita) and Mike Mushok (lead guitar) did an interactive Q&A on Nikki Sixx -Ask Anything chat with their fans and it was posted on YouTube to ask questions and mine was chosen, among many others from around the world. I asked them “Whose inspired you ALL to become great musicians?” and they both gave me amazing answers of bands and artists that myself and my parents grew up listening too. Here is the link if you’d like to check it out. . I won’t tell you what time my question was asked. You just have to listen to it for yourselves and be surprised and amazed on what they say. I have met a few great people who are also fans of the bands Art of Dying and Saint Asonia. Their names are Kathy Bachand, Victoria Cherrington and Nikki May. Once I started getting to know them and chat with them, we started getting really close and our friendships keep growing every day.

On to a personal level, in my past I’ve had a lot of tragic things happen in my life and there was someone close to me that recently passed away, and he told me some inspirational words that always stuck with me. He said to me “Follow your heart and your dreams and they will lead you to great things in the future, and whatever you choose, make it count.”

Well so far, I have done a lot of great things in my life that I’m proud of. I said to myself that I would never get any tattoos, and I now have 5 of them that are very personal and have a lot of stories and meaning behind them.

A few years ago, I went to Las Vegas and my best friend Sabrina and I did a fun outing of the Grand Canyon and did the Sky-walk and I was always afraid of heights, so I faced my fear and it was the most unforgettable experience of my life. I saw so many great views of the canyon and the hoover dam. I even took a small 10 person plane and around the dam to see what it’s all about. It was so great that I want to back and do more over there in Vegas. This memory stuck with me because I always told my best friend that I would never want to be in a high place, and she told me to trust her. Well, funny enough, I did, and I forgot what I was missing out on. It was so exhilarating and breath-taking that I am still telling people presently of how my first experience went.

Had I not been involved with music in my life and not followed my dreams, I would be a completely different person and done something else that I would not enjoy doing. Music is such an important thing to a lot of people who are very creative, because it helps them live, breathe and go on journeys that they have never been on before with their family, friends and fans. Just to hear one person do a random act of kindness to someone and say “take a listen to this song and it will change your perspective on things” makes all your worry and sorrows go away and you become a completely changed person that can conquer anything you set your mind to do. I for one am a strong believer that if you put your heart and soul to do whatever you have a goal set on, you will be amazed on what you have done and others will turn to you for advice and tips on what got you started.

I guess you can say that I’m a motivational and inspirational person because I, among a billion of people from around the world, are going through the same thing I am, so we are not alone and can relate and get great feedback off each other.

One final note to say: Thank you to all of those who have believed in me and been through my journey and help me out along the way to become an independent woman. I have spoken to a lot of inspirational people who have shared their personal stories with me and I am returning the favor to do the same back to them. I would not be the most bubbly person with such a great positive attitude and cheer people up, had I not been creative in music and share all this with you.

I will leave you with this inspirational quote. “As we express our gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them.”– John F. Kennedy




My Musical Inspirations part 2!

Hey everyone, earlier this summer I had the chance to discover some bands/artists that touched my heart deeply. As I go along, I will talk about the bands/artists and explain why they mean so much to me. The first band I love and admire is a canadian band from Vancouver,BC Canada called Art of Dying.

The band members are: Jonny Hetherington – lead vocals (2004–present); former drummer Jeff Brown – drums (2008–2016); new drummer Cody Watkins (2016-present); Cale Gontier – bass (2008–present); Tavis Stanley – guitar (2008–present). They have 3 albums out called (self titled) Art of Dying (2006), Vices and Virtues 2011) and Rise Up #EP (2015). Their famous songs which I love a lot and listen to constantly are “Die Trying” “Raining” (featuring Adam Gontier, “Rise Up”, “Everything” and “Tear Down The Walls”. Each of their songs talks about something different that I love because they all have a personal meaning in my life.

They got to open up for Apocalyptica for their Shadowmaker North-American tour this year and I got the opportunity to meet them just after their set at the merch booth. I got a picture taken with them and I even got to chat with them for a bit and chat with Cale for a few minutes longer. For those that are living in a bubble and thinking why they have the same last name, he is cousins with Adam Gontier and they are the best cousins that I love. Cale told me that he got to be best man for Adam’s wedding back in March of this year to an amazing girl Jeanie Marie. He said that Adam was the happiest person to marry a great girl like her. I follow them all on social media so I would like their pictures and comment on them sometimes if I love the picture. Speaking of Adam, my next band I really love and have inspired me is Saint Asonia.

Saint Asosia is a Canadian/American rock band that was formed in Toronto,Ontario Canada in 2014. The band members are : Adam Gontier – lead vocals, rhythm guitar (ex-Three Days Grace); Mike Mushok – lead guitar (Staind); Corey Lowery – bass, backing vocals (Eye Empire); Rich Beddoe – drums (ex-Finger Eleven). Saint Asonia has given the fans a sneak peak of their first single “Better Place” in early may and on May.16th, 2015, it was fully released to social media and on the radio. They were the “special guest” at Rock on the Range 2015 on the same date and Better Place was their first song they rocked out to the crowd. The band performed other songs such as “Fairy Tale”, “Dying Slowly” and “Let Me Live My Life”, but also performed cover songs of Three Days Grace, such as “I Hate Everything About You” and Staind’s “Mudshovel”. On July.31st,2015 they released their debut album and it features 11 tracks. Their second single “Blow Me Wide Open” was relased on June.29th,2015.

If you ask me, I love all their songs but the ones that stick out to me a lot are “Better Place”, “Let Me Live My Life” and “Blow Me Wide Open”. Better Place is about not letting other people hold you back from moving forward, and just becoming a better person and evolving as a person. Let Me Live My Life is about being held down again, about being in a situation where somebody doesn’t want you to move forward and they’re doing their best to try and keep you from doing that. “Blow Me Wide Open” is about feeling like you’ve been led on by someone for a long period of time, and just wondering if they still remember who you are and who you realy are. It’s about reconnecting with that person after years. Their other songs are “Fairy Tale” which is about being expected to do certain things and being held to certain standards, and not necessairly doing what other people around you want you to do. It’s basically a big middle finger to anyone who’s trying to rule your life. “Even Though I Say” is about realizing that you can change, realizing that the change that you want is possible and going after it. “Waste My Time” is basically a straightforward love song. Nothing else to explain about this one. “King of Nothing” is about basically treating people like crap and then realizing that you’ve pushed everyone away and realizing that you might be feeling on top of the world, but you actually have nothing.

My third favorite band that I really love is Apocalyptica. They are a Finnish metal band from Helsinki. They first started out in 1993. The 5 band members, along with their singer are: Eicca Toppinen – lead cello, double bass, percussion, programming, vocals (1993–present) ; Paavo Lötjönen – rhythm cello, vocals (1993–present) ; Perttu Kivilaakso – lead cello, programming, vocals (1995, 1999–present) ; Mikko Sirén – drums, double bass, vocals (2005–present; live member: 2003-2005) Franky Perez– vocals (2014–present). 

The reason why I love Apocalyptica is because all 3 members play the cello which I find is the sexiest instrument anyone can play. Every time I hear it, whether it’s their hard rock songs or soft melodic tunes, I always get goosebumbs and it makes me want to learn it to see what it’s all about it. There are 2 alto cellos that Eicca and Perttu play and then you have Paavo that plays the bass cello which has the deep sounds. Mikko has played the double bass during some of their performances and they are mind-blowing when all 4 are on stage. I’ve been to 2 of their concerts and I have nothing but amazing reviews to share with people that have never heard about them or only know the cello. Some people may think that you can only play classical music but when you hear their music, whether it’s on the radio or from their cds, you hear one heavy metal song and you are speechless and stunned by what they can do with a simple instrument. I will hopefully one day learn it and show them what skills I have learned and then whenever I get the chance to meet them, I will tell them that I have moved away from the piano to learn the cello.

My last artist that I will add in here has been a great discovery for me. He has been in my life and others (echelons and EPICS) and he is Boy Epic. I have found him on VyRT when he did his first single “Scars” for the Suicide Squad movie which will be released in August,2016. He has other amazing songs like “Paralyzed”, “Tell Me You Love Me”, “Fifty Shades” and many more. He has such a unique voice that no one else has and when you hear him speak and sing, you are blown away by what you hear. I am still stunned to this day by his amazement and what he’s accomplished. He did a movie called “Tell Me Lies” that you can only see on Youtube. He also has his friend Melissa in the movie. Boy Epic has recently released an acoustic version of Scars that’s a piano version. He is currently doing episodes called “Telling Secrets” that can only be seen on VyRT and when you become a VIP member, you have access to chat with him once the episode finishes airing and watch bonus secret videos that only VIPers can see. I got the chance to become a VIP memeber for his first series and it’s an amazing experience. I found out that he is a Leo like myself and his friend Melissa Cordero so I find that very special. I am so happy that he is finally writing his first debut album that will have amazing tracks and only the VyRTers will get a chance to listen to the album before it gets released around the world. If I can say something to him it would be THANK YOU for discovering you and your amazing music that has made me evolve my genres of music and to let me write my own music with your inspiration and struggles that you have been dealing with in your past and have opened up to the world that others can relate to and myself.

I love everything about music and musical instruments. I have some musically talented family members that play the guitar and/or sing like my cousins and my younger brother and myself that play the piano. For those that think they aren’t musically talented or gifted, if you are one that loves to sing along to music on the radio or wherever you hear it, you are talented. You may not sound like Britney Spears or anyone famous like her but you know what you sound like and that’s an amazing feeling. I always listen to music every day, and when I work out, on the bus/train/metro and in the car and I tend to sing along with the words. I tend to really listen to the lyrics and know what the band or singer was feeling when they were writing the song. Singers usually write about personal things that have happened in their lives and instead of doing harm to yourself, they would write it out on paper with their bandmates and when it’s approved by their manager, bandmates and producer, they would go to the studio, record their vocals, percussion and guitars/bass guitar and when they have enough songs, they have a successful album.

I am currently in the process of writing all the time and hopefully find a contact to start singing and hear my own voice on a cd and record in a studio. All these bands and artists that I have mentioned make me become a better person and a future singer/song-writer and when I will get out my music to the public, i will have a lot of Thank Yous to write about.

A final note to leave you with: “Thank you to everyone who has been in my life, whether I know you personally or we have met on VyRT, or through music. You have made me be a stronger, independant, opened person to share my work with the world and get some great feedback so you can tell me what to work on next. I love doing new projects whether it’s musical or not. If I never listened to Thirty Seconds To Mars or been on VyRT, I would have never had the inspirational words from Jared Leto telling me to go after my dreams and to work hard, no matter what and never give up. I wouldn’t be the person I am today. I have a lot of people to thank but a global THANK YOU around the world will be enough!”


Sarah Jolin


My Musical Inspirations!

These amazing bands that I love have inspired me to be creative with my life and to be open to the different genres that are out there in the world. I will be naming you some of my favourites and try to elaborate on why they are important to me.

The first one is Backstreet Boys. These 5 guys from Orlando, Florida have been around for 20+ years, started in 1993 and have made continuous albums that I will forever cherish and love. They already have 8 amazing albums and are currently working on their 9th album. I have loved their music ever since they began, back in the 90s. If I can pick one song from all their albums that would be my favourite, it would be “Show Me The Meaning (of Being Lonely) because it talks about losing a loved one and/or significant other that either passed away or broke up with you. No matter what you’re going through, this song understands you because you can relate to the words. I find that when you listen to the song, you hear the melody but those that close their eyes and are alone in a room, you can really get to know what the artist was feeling at that time they were writing it and this song does it for me. Out of all the band members, Brian would be my “favourite”, I recently watched their documentary video they released January.31st,2015 and it talked about their success and fame to becoming who they are. It also talked about the 5 band members former/present lives before starting the band. I really got to know who these 5 amazing guys are by relating to their personal lives. Brian’s story really affected me because he is a lot like Shannon Leto from Thirty Seconds To Mars. He wants to prove to everyone that he can do a lot for the band, but there are some consequences on what will happen to his health. He has to do what he can to make the band successful and yet somehow still keep himself healthy and alive. These are a few reasons why I really love this band.

The second band that I really love is Linkin Park. These 6 guys from Agoura Hills, California have started out in 1996 with their first singles “One Step Closer” and “Crawling”. I have loved their hard rock music because if I’m having a bad day, a fight with someone or just wanting some alone time, their music is like therapy for me. I would listen to it full blast in my room with my headphones on and listen to their music constantly. They have 6 albums out now and are having an amazing success touring around the world. They are so good at what they do and they love it. Their songs talk about life, love, break-ups, the list goes on. I can’t really choose a member that I really love and relate to because I love them all. They each have something unique to the band which makes them awesome.  They are also involved in some major charities and organizations for Haiti and Japan.

The third band I really love a lot is Nickelback. These 4 guy are from Hanna, Alberta Canada. They first started in 1995. Their hit song  “How You Remind Me” was listed as the top rock song of the decade and the fourth song of the decade. They currently have 8 albums right now and just recently released their 8th album “No Fixed Address” November.17th,2014 and are now going on tour all over North America and all over the world. I love all their music because they have a mix of humour, love, hate, sex, etc and it’s something that we can all relate too just like I previously mentioned in my first band. All the members have a unique vibe to how they present themselves musically which is why I love them so much and I fully support my Canadian bands, just as well as US and foreign bands.

My fourth band I really love and has sadly been on a hiatus since 2012 is Evanescence. They first started in 1995 in Little Rock, Arkansas. Currently they have 3 albums but are on break. I remember hearing their very first song “Bring Me To Life” and as I was listening to it, I kept asking myself who this amazing singer is with such a powerful voice and her name is Amy Lee. She has more of a gothic/rock tone to her voice, but that’s what makes her shine. The song I can relate to in this band is “My Immortal” because lyrically, it talks about “a spirit staying with you after its death and haunting you until you actually wish that the spirit were gone because it won’t leave you alone.” I have lost a few of my loved ones and I felt such a strong connection to them because I knew them for such a long time and when they passed, I felt their spirits lingering around just knowing that they would watch over me no matter what. I miss them all terribly and wish they can still be alive but there are things that happen in life that we have no control of.

My fifth and final band that I really love is of course Thirty Seconds to Mars. These guys have formed in 1998 and are from Los Angeles, California. They have 4 amazing albums out and are currently on tour in Europe where they are still launching their album “Love, Lust, Faith and Dreams” which is so different sounding than their other 3 albums. They have gone through hell and back fighting a terrible lawsuit with EMI for their contract and while making their third album “This Is War” in 2008-2011. I find that all their songs sound completely different which is great, because you don’t want them to sound the same and say “well this song is boring.” You want people to say “wow, this new song Kings & Queens or The Kill sounds so different and amazing.” People will buy their albums and go see them on tour to get a sense of how they sound and get involved in their family called the ECHELON which is fans from all around the world just talking about their music, the guys and of course this new program called VyRT which is a way for people to connect with them and different bands/artists. It’s a new way of technology for fans to interact with the bands to watch events live while chatting. I can go on and on talking about this awesome band because honestly, they’ve literally changed my life for the better. Without them, I wouldn’t be who I am today and expand my love for new artists and bands that I’ve never even heard of before. Out of all their songs they have, I can honestly relate to “Alibi” because it talks about battling your demons you faced in the past and overcoming them through challenges you have to encounter so you can be stronger and be a better person and ignore all the negative people in the world that will tell you, you are nothing, you can’t do anything with your life and the ones that say that to you are the ones that have had challenges they couldn’t beat or go through. They are the ones that suffered from something bad happening in their lives and they see the positive people continuing on with their lives to do what they want to do and enjoy whatever it is they choose. It’s okay to make mistakes and struggle because I always say “whatever doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” and I believe that. I would like to say thank you to the ECHELON on VyRT for taking me in as their family because I feel like I am part of something amazing that I can share all my problems with them, they can relate to me and what I’m going through and we all exchange some laughs, experiences and just have fun and be ourselves.

If it wasn’t for me being so creative and loving music and playing music growing up, I wouldn’t be where I am today. I started at a very young age of 4 years old playing the piano and I currently am still playing and learning every single day. Had I not chosen to be creative, I’d be doing something that I’d hate because it was something that was forced on me and I would regret every second of it until I found what it was I loved. I am so grateful that I am still alive and am very healthy by taking care of myself first and foremost because I want to live a long life, get married, have my own kids and show my kids what I was like growing up. I am happier than I’ve ever been now than I ever was growing up and it’s because of the love of music that has changed me forever!


My life and how Thirty Seconds To Mars changed my life!

Hi there, this is my first blog ever so bear with me. I’ve fallen in love with an amazing band that’s been around for more than 20 years and I love each member for their talents and what they bring to the table with their fans. That band is Thirty Seconds to Mars and the members are Jared Leto, Shannon Leto and Tomo Milicevic. How did I fall in love with this amazing band you might ask? Well, ever since I’ve heard their song “The Kill” I immediately had to know who this band was, so I did my research and found out they are called “Thirty Seconds To Mars” and I already heard about Jared Leto being in movies such as Fight Club, Requiem For a Dream, and now recently Dallas Buyers Club.

Besides the point of his movies, I knew he was also a singer and lead singer to the band so I started listening to a few of their songs from their second album “A Beautiful Lie” and I was hooked. I now own all their albums and constantly listen to them no matter what mood I’m in. Whether I’m having a good day or a bad day, their music is like a “pick me up” to feel better. They now have their series called “Into The Wild” on VyRT and after watching every episode so far, it’s made me feel so much closer to them than I ever would imagine and I have such a deeper connection with each of them, but mostly with Shannon because I can relate to his demons he’s battled in the past and how he started the band. Without him, Jared and Tomo wouldn’t be where they are today being successful with their albums, touring and the ECHELON.

The ECHELON on VyRT has made me a part of their “family”. They taught me to be who I am, to not take crap from the negative people who are not fans of the band and just live. If ever we somehow all meet in person, I would hug them all and say thank you personally to them to accept me just like them; a dedicated fan. I wouldn’t be where I am today with my drive, passion and love for music. I have started playing the piano since I was 4 years old and since today at 28 years old, I still have the will to learn new piano songs every day to improve and get better. I am like Shannon in a lot of ways, musically, because he/I hated school and only cared for music. Music class was the only thing he/I succeeded in (and I am now a certified instructor if ever I wanted to be a music teacher to kids. I am gifted in music because I can’t read sheet music at all. I play music by ear. I’ve basically been self-taught that way where I would hear a piano song and run to my piano and learn it over and over again. Until I get it right, I would keep practicing it and the last shot I would record it alone, and be in awe of how amazing it sounds. I guess you can say that I learned it from the guys and others who have inspired me musically.

What people don’t understand is how they call me “obsessed” with the band but that’s an understatement. I am not an obsessed fan but I’m devoted to them and their music. They tell people to go after their dreams. Jared quoted “You have a good chance at making some of your wildest dreams come true. People don’t ever try, sadly. Most people try to stop or give up. Very few people try, and try, and try or do, and do, and do and never give up. And those are the people who ultimately succeed and win.”

I think what Jared is saying is go after whatever it is you want to do in your life and don’t give up no matter what is in your way. What I say to that is dream big, stay away from the negative people around you and go after your dreams and just be happy.

My biggest dream is to be successful in MY life to fulfill MY goals. I want to make myself happy first and I want to be able to say to the world “This is me, this is what I’ve done with my life and no one or anything will get in my way no matter what.”

The band has taught me to live my life, laugh at all the things that may seem to be not funny but laugh anyways, think outside the box, be creative, work hard, do something special with my life. If/when I can/will say something to them in person, it will be “Thank you for teaching me to dream, to let me live the life that I want to live and to accept me as I am!”