Music & Friendships cont…7

Main characters:

Sarah – Felicia
Kathy – Shauna
Vera – Charlotte
Adam – Markus
Cale – Theo
Sean – Jace
Jeanie – Marie
Ryan – Adam

Chapter 7…

“TRIPLETS? I’M HAVING TRIPLETS? ARE YOU SURE THAT THE RESULTS SAY OTHERWISE? WHAT’S THE SEX OF THIS BABY? PLEASE DON’T TELL ME IT’S ANOTHER…” Dr.Archer interrupted me before I continued to have a panic attack and replied “Now Felicia, I know this is quite a shock and I’m used to this. The boys and your daughter are all in perfect health with 10 toes and 10 fingers growing every day. Yes, you heard me right, your third baby is a girl. I bet they are all going to have a mix of you and your husband.”

As I finished my appointment, Marie gave me a big hug and yelled out “CONGRATULATIONS. OH MY GOODNESS, THIS IS EXCITING. YOU’RE HAVING A DAUGHTER AND TRIPLETS. THEO IS GOING TO FLIP OUT. HECK, EVERYONE WILL.” I was still in shock and I had to tell everyone tonight but not my husband. I wanted to keep it a surprise when they were born. Ohhh how was I going to keep this from him, knowing that we never keep secrets from each other?

Marie and I headed to the entrance of the castle and I was trying to keep calm to everyone about the news, but it looked like the news spread like wildfire. I turned to Marie and I freaked out to her and said, “Marie how could you? This was supposed to be kept…” “Felicia hun, I didn’t say anything actually. How could I when I was with you the entire time, and I was driving? Hmmm, who could do such a thing? We have a snitch somewhere in this place, unless Theo called Dr.Archer himself to find out?”

I was not going to freak out or have my babies in distress 2 months before they are born. Prince Adrian had a huge surprise for me and Theo, after we made a huge crazy decision to stay here in the castle permanently, and he guided us to a hidden room that was on reserve. “M’Lady, Good Sir, I had been keeping this a secret for a few months while you were going through the pregnancy together, and this couldn’t wait any longer. I present you the nursery with the 3 connecting cribs, along with all the equipment needed and I was thrilled to hear it from Dr.Archer to get my information on the decorations for the nursery.”

The last 2 months flew by so fast that I was not believing my due date was quickly approaching in a matter of days. I spent my lasy days with the crew having a group dinner, and we we were having such a great time when suddenly, I saw a puddle of water on the floor, and then sheer panic struck. “UHHHH GUYS, I THINK MY WATER JUST BROKE. I NEED TO GET TO THE HOSPITAL QUICKLY. I’M HAVING THESE BABIES TONIGHT.” Theo tried not to get in a panic and got the car while everyone grabbed my things, and I started to have my first contractions. I had Marie time my contractions since, she was used to this when she had Wade, and the closer we got to the hospital, the more contractions I was getting. We finally reached the emergency department and Theo rushed to get a wheelchair for me and started yelling “WE NEED A DOCTOR. MY WIFE IS IN LABOR AND WE’RE HAVING THESE BABIES ASAP.”

An hour turned out to be 3 hours of contractions and I was ready to have my babies. My husband was in the delivery room and I did what I needed to do, and my 3 bundles of joy were born all at the same time. The best for last was my surprise. My 2 boys and my daughter were in perfect health and Theo turned to me while he was crying happy tears, and I looked to him and said ” Surprise baby, we also had a girl. She’s beautiful, they’re all beautiful and perfect.” Their names are…

Stay tuned for more in chapter 8…

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Music & Friendships cont…6

Main characters:

Sarah – Felicia
Kathy – Shauna
Vera – Charlotte
Adam – Markus
Cale – Theo
Sean – Jace
Jeanie – Marie
Ryan – Adam

Chapter 6…

I couldn’t believe my eyes and ears. MY FAVORITE ROCK BAND IS COMING TO VIENNA AND PERFORMING AT THE MOST IMPORTANT FESTIVAL EVER KNOWN. AVENGED SEVENFOLD was joining the lineup. THIS IS HUGE. Markus and Theo got their equipment ready because the festival was happening in a few days.  I felt very pregnant and very hormonal and didn’t want my husband to leave my side. He looked at me with such sadness and said “Sweetheart, Markus and I have to attend this festival. I had one special gift to give to you, and the others, well, they already know about. We all thought, before the twins were born, that you should be side-stage and have full VIP access to the entire event and even meet the guys in Avenged Sevenfold. I’ll even have a medic on standby if need be. I’ve already informed them and they are delighted to meet you.”

Remembering that I couldn’t literally jump for joy, I leaned over to my husband to kiss him passionately and gave him a big hug. I was getting emotional and said “Ohhhh honey, this is so amazing. I am really familiar with their music and I know I’ll have such a great time and a memorable experience I’ll never forget. I love you baby. Ohhh I feel a lot of movement and ohhh ouch, one of the boys keeps kicking my side.”

The day has arrived at the festival and being with my crew by my side backstage in the VIP lounge, I was definitely well taken care of by the ladies, while the boys hung out together. Out of the corner of my eye, I turned around to look at something and the guys from Avenged Sevenfold start walking towards Markus and Theo. I was trying to keep my cool but I was getting too excited that I squealed for joy. The short one, Zacky Vengance, noticed me first and came closer to me and said “Hey there, you must be Theo’s wife, and ohhh you’re expecting. Congratulations on that. Are you having one or?” I interrupted “OMG ZACKY VENGANCE  IT’S SUCH AN HONOR TO MEET YOU AND THE REST OF THE BAND. YES I’M THEO’S WIFE, FELICIA. WE’RE EXPECTING TWIN BOYS IN APRIL. BETWEEN US, I’M NOT ENTIRELY SURE IT IS TWINS BECAUSE I FEEL MORE MOVEMENT THAN USUAL. SHHH DON’T TELL MY HUSBAND”

I had gotten my rounds of getting to know the other guys, Matt Shadows, Brooks Wakerman, Johnny Christ and Synyster Gates and pretty soon it was close to their time to perform. A bunch of us walked towards the back of the stage, and I saw Marie, Charlotte, Shauna and Sarah waiting for me to join them to have a great time, and make sure I’m comfortable. Here I see Matt Shadows walking by me and gives me a high-5 to wish him good luck. I was on such a great energy high that I was having the time of my life.

The boys almost finished their setlist, and for their encore songs, they invited Markus and Theo to join them and I had taken so many pictures of them on stage. 10 minutes later, everyone walks off stage and I managed to snag my husband to a secluded area for some personal time and we felt like hormonal teenagers making out for a few minutes. I said to him with a big smile “Baby, I am so proud of you and what you’ve accomplished on stage. Our boys had such a great time because I felt so much movement the entire time. In fact they’re still going at it now. Here put your hand on my belly and feel that… isn’t it amazing?” Theo had such a great experience feeling what I was feeling and my boys were so thrilled their daddy got to feel it. 

As my husband and I made our way back to the lounge area, Matt approached me and said “Hey Felicia, the boys and I were talking and besides having a great time with us, besides the pictures and signed merch and a group picture, we’ve decided that you can come with your friends to every show and we’ll promise to have you situated in the best hotel and feel comfortable. Of course you might have to wait until the twins are born to travel elsewhere.” I was speechless and the only thing that came out of my mouth was “Owwww, sorry, the twins have been kicking all day. I ummm, I’m more than happy to accept the invitation. Thank you guys for giving me the best time ever before my babies are born. I’ll have Theo contact you boys directly in a few months time.”

We all made our way back to the castle and I needed to stop for food because I was so hungry and craving the weirdest foods. Once that was done, we went in town for some supplies and headed to the entrance. I was feeling really tired at this point and I managed to fall asleep in the car. I was out like a light and I didn’t remember being back to my room in my bed, snuggled up in my blankets with my husband by my side. I awoke late in the night and I was feeling the sharpest pain and I had to wake up Marie to sneak me in the hospital so I can get checked out again quickly. Something wasn’t feeling right and I was going to get to the bottom of this. 

I finally pass through to see Dr.Archer thankfully being on duty, and he did another test and ultrasound to see anything out of the ordinary. His eyes grew wide and he gives me a look of something different that’s changed. He tells me ” My dear Felicia, I am going to tell you that I accidentally mis-informed you with your husband on the growth of the babies and it looks like…”

Stay tuned for more in chapter 7… coming SOON!

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Music & Friendships cont…5

Main characters:

Sarah – Felicia
Kathy – Shauna
Vera – Charlotte
Adam – Markus
Cale – Theo
Sean – Jace
Jeanie – Marie
Ryan – Adam

 

Chapter 5…

Still confused, Felicia stares in shock and says “H-Hi everyone, uhhhh what are you all doing here? Where am I? What happened? Why am I in the hospital? I remember walking around the castle with the ladies and I…” Before I had time to finish asking my question, Theo cut me off and replied “Sweetheart, we are all here at your bedside because you passed out from a lot of movement in your belly and got really worried about you. Dr.Archer here took an ultrasound, and baby, you’re not carrying one baby, you’re carrying TWINS. Congratulations honey. This is the best day I ever had, well except marrying you of course.” Theo bent down to kiss Felicia passionately and Felicia started getting teary-eyed from the great news.

Charlotte bumped Theo out of the way and said “Hey there pudding, I am sooooo excited you’re having twins. My money is on twin boys. They’ll have your charm and charisma and their daddys looks for sure. Ohhhhhhh this is the best news ever.” Shauna and Prince Adrian stepped in and Charlotte went to join Jace and Adam with the others. Prince Adrian said in the most suddle way “My lady Felicia, I have brought the news to back home and we would all be delighted for you to have a permanant stay with your husband and your twin uhhh, not sure if they are boys or girls yet, but whatever they are, back at the castle when they are born and the rest of the crew have already agreed to staying here. I’ll give you and Sir Theo time to talk about it. I’ll need an answer by the end of the week please.”

While still in the hospital, I asked for Markus, Marie, Charlotte and Jace to stay with me while the others went back to the castle to get some rest. “Ladies and gents, Theo and I were talking before and we needed 2 sets of God-parents and we thought since you two couples are already married and I am now related to you Markus, I would love it if you’d be honored to be their God-parents? I won’t take no for an answer. ” Marie turned to Markus and same did Charlotte to Jace, and with huge smiles on their faces, Markus, who doesn’t usually get choked up, looked at the both of us and said “We would be delighted to accept because we were going to ask you if you would be God-Parents to our little guy too?” Charlotte kissed Jace and said to Theo and I “What took you guys so long? I was dreaming of being god-parents to one of your little bundle of joys. We all promise to be there for them as they grow up and stay true to our promises, no matter what. We love you both and this has been the best day today.”

As the last 2 couples left the room, finally my husband and I were alone with my bigger growing belly and we were getting tired. I didn’t want Theo to leave my sight after finding out the biggest, pun intended, news ever and I had a request for him to sing to my belly since the twins were getting rowdy in my belly. He sung my favorite childhood song my parents sung to me when I was growing in my moms’ belly, and that song was called “Love You Forever” by Robert Munsch. Minutes after he was singing, I fell fast asleep and he stayed the night next to me as we drifted into the night.

As the next few months rolled by, I was on my second trimester of 5 months and it was time for my next check-up and ultrasound, Dr.Archer wanted to see how my symptoms were doing and what food cravings I was having nowadays, etc. During the sonogram, I see two fetuses and they looked perfect and healthy. Dr.Archer printed out a copy and I noticed all the little features and realized that I wasn’t having twin girls, I was having… wait WHAT? BOYS? TWIN BOYS? HOLY… THIS IS DEFINITELY TWO BIGGER MIRACLES I EVER THOUGHT POSSIBLE… Theo kissed me with such excitement and said “WOW, TWIN BOYS, THIS IS… THIS IS… AHHH dammit I’m going to cry happy tears” 

We made our way back to the castle after stopping by to pick up some lunch, since now I was eating for not only myself but twin boys. and everyone gathered around in the foyer and looked so thrilled for us to be back. The group was talking all at once and Theo whistled loudly and yelled out “HEYYYYY, WE HAVE A FINAL ANNOUNCEMENT TO MAKE.” Silence filled the room that you couldn’t even hear a pin drop. Theo continued “My wife and I have the best news that tops us having twins. We are proud to announce that we are having twin boys. Felicia’s due date is April.24th, 2019.

Prince Adrian called the butler over to get everyone more bubbly and non-alcoholic bubbly for some of us to celebrate the upcoming births of the twins. This was surely a memorable time that was written in the books. Later that day, as evening progressed quickly, there was a feast in the dining room that was enough to feed the entire town. So many dishes were on the serving table, and I had made special requests of the foods Felicia can eat, that were healthy for the twins and herself. The crew wined and dined until late that night, and Felicia fell asleep at the table being up the entire day from her busy schedule. Her husband, along with the other men, helped her to her room to get some well deserved sleep.

Month 7 rolled around and it was the hottest summer around in Vienna. Festivals and concerts were held in the village every year and the biggest, hottest and most popular bands were always there. Little did I know, Markus and Theo had their bands perform at the concerts, and they had a huge surprise for me. My third favorite band of all time made a surprise stop to put on a surprise show at an unrecognizable location we would only be allowed to enter. That band was…

Chapter 6 to be continued… SOON…

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Music & Friendships cont…4

Main characters:

Sarah – Felicia
Kathy – Shauna
Vera – Charlotte
Adam – Markus
Cale – Theo
Sean – Jace
Jeanie – Marie
Ryan – Adam

 

Chapter 4…

Marie texted me back in sheer panic with my essentials and told me to meet her in the farthest bathroom possible. I quietly walked quickly to the bathroom and did my duties and waited for a few minutes and then I couldn’t look, so Marie smiled for joy and said “Congratulations mommy to be, you’re pregnant. We just have to be cautious of your symptoms for a while and then go for your first check-up to see the progress.” I was crying for a few minutes and I was in shock. Don’t worry it was a very happy cry and shock. My little miracle is growing inside me. 

A few hours later, I was up in my room taking a nap when I was woken up by my husband and he said he needed to talk about something and I did too. Theo looked at me with such confusion and asked me if I was feeling alright because I’ve been changing my food intake and not drinking any alcohol. “Honey? sweetheart? What’s been going on with you lately? You’ve been feeling sick every morning and you’ve been eating more than me and look a little plump and flushed. Are you? Are we?”

“Theo, darling, I was going to wait until tonight to say my announcement but to answer your questions, yes I am 100% pregnant and we are expecting. I have to go see my doctor and get some accurate results but I’m definitely pregnant. Only Marie knows because she’s already a mom and I needed her help. We will get through it all and have a beautiful baby.” 

Later that evening, my crew went out for dinner. Adrian decided to choose the restaurant and it turned out to be a friend of his who owned it. We went to a private sector for several reasons. Adrian had our menus planned out and there was a lot I couldn’t eat due to my pregnancy and I stood up with my husband to reveal the news. “Everyone gather around. We have a huge announcement to make. We have to now extend our family and we don’t know the official date yet but…” Charlotte and Shauna blurted out and cut me off before we finished and said together “Ohhh my goodness you’re pregnant aren’t you? This calls for a celebration to toast the new parents to be. Waiter give us your most expensive bottle of bubbly and something non-alcoholic for the ones who are unable to.”

Adrian had something to say to everyone after the announcement. “Everyone, I have an announcement to make as well. Shauna, I’m not who I say I am. I can’t hide the truth anymore. I’m a Prince and my family owns a lot of land that has a hidden castle miles down from the mainland. I have spoken to my family and they have decided to invite you all to stay with us for as much time needed until Felicia and Theo’s baby is born. 

Shauna, like the rest of us was in udder shock that Adrian, nay, Prince Adrian was not kidding around. I walked up to Shauna to talk about it and convince her to accept the invitation, because I wouldn’t be able to stay at my hotel job in the next couple of months, as my pregnancy progresses. Without much convincing, Shauna had a huge smile on her face and said “Prince Adrian, we would all be delighted to join you in your beautiful home. Felicia would need to me monitored by a nurse and a doctor for her pregnancy and get regular check-ups. We will all make sure she’s comfortable and enjoy her stay.”

4 months go by and everyone has settled beautifully in the castle, each couple in their proper rooms, the newlyweds/parents-to-be in the fancier suite. Felicia notices she has quite a rounder and larger belly than a normal one. She took a stroll through the castle with the ladies and wasn’t feeling very well. She was about to turn to the ladies and say something when she suddenly passed out in Marie’s arms and got rushed to the doctors. 

Theo rushed to the hospital where his wife was bed-ridden and unconscious and Dr.Archer told him what happened with her. “Sir, your wife has been having a bit of pain which caused her to pass out and we did an ultrasound and have the best news. You’re not having one child but she’s carrying twins. We’ll have more updates on their genders in about a month. I sense it’ll 2 healthy baby boys. Only time will tell. 

Felicia wakes up looking disoriented and confused as to why she’s in the hospital and turns to the right and sees the entire family by her bed with balloons and flowers in their hands and notices something odd… She questions herself and asks “What’s been happening while I was unconscious?” 

Stay tuned for more in chapter 5 coming soon…

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Music & Friendships cont…3 !

Main characters:

Sarah – Felicia
Kathy – Shauna
Vera – Charlotte
Adam – Markus
Cale – Theo
Sean – Jace
Jeanie – Marie
Ryan – Adam

 

Chapter 3…

What turned out to be a few days stay for the crew, ended up being an indefinite stay. Felicia and Theo started planning out their wedding and were looking at vintage churches to have their ceremony in. One morning, Charlotte ended up taking a stroll with her husband Jace, and spotted a beautiful area with a stunning church called St Peter’s Church. It was located in a small plaza in the inner city, very close to the Graben and the Plague Column. Charlotte immediately jumped for joy and turned to Jace and said “Honey, we have found the spot for Felicia and Theo to have their wedding ceremony. Ohh isn’t it gorgeous? And look at the architectural structure of when it was built, and ohh, we can invite their families to join them as witnesses, there’s a huge interior with…” Jace looked over-joyed and replied “Darling, it’s not our wedding day, we already had it in Ireland remember? Adam was my best man with my sisters as your bridesmaids in the small vineyard over looking the mountains. Let the happy couple plan and start their happily ever after fairy tale.”

Charlotte and Jace came back to the hotel poolside where Markus, Marie, Shauna and a mysterious man sitting by Shauna. He looked very intriguing. He was very tall, I say maybe 6 ft 4; light brown hair cut short; piercing blue eyes that looked like wolf eyes; very muscular features; looks like he keeps in shape at the gym a lot; had a very deep sultry Austrian accent, like he was from here but in a different town and Shauna seemed to know quite a bit about him. Charlotte came to find Felicia to give her the details on the venue but she was unavailable with Theo for a while.

Shauna gave Charlotte the nod to join her for virgin cocktails with Marie and finally introduced me to her mystery man. Shauna with a cheerful look said “Charlotte, I’d like you to meet my partner Adrian. He’s a local here and works at a music shop just down the block. I was walking alone around the area to familiarize myself and I accidentally bumped into Adrian without paying attention and he caught me before I fell down. We started talking and I got comfortable with him, as if I knew him my entire life, and we went to a coffee shop around the corner and started talking for hours. Before we knew it, it became very late at night and I was not about to go back to the hotel alone, so Adrian offered free of charge to let me stay at his villa he rents out to students and spend the night. Well, one thing led to another and we sort of slept together and had a magical night.”

The same day, much later in the afternoon, the happy couple (with Felicias’ blinding ring shining everywhere in sight) joined us for the remainder of the sunshine by the pool and Felicia had a really cute navy blue and white striped bikini and Theo had on navy blue trunks to match with his love. As the sun went down and everyone was relaxing, Theo decided to gather everyone around for a speech. Let’s just say he was terrible at it but he gave it his all. He blurted out “Alright crew, as you all know my love and I are planning our wedding and we were talking and doing our own research and instead of waiting a long time to set a date, we decided to advance it to the end of the month. I know, I know it’s a lot to handle but we fell in love with the area and I am going to be permanently moving here after the wedding is over. I made some phone calls and Markus and Marie, this may be a lot to handle but my love and happiness has set to this amazing woman I will soon call my wife and I need to this for myself.”

As the days were quickly approaching, Felicia managed to take some time off work and started planning her bridal party. It was a small one, but Charlotte, Shauna and Marie were the closest thing she had to family. At least the groomsmen were simple, Markus, Adam, Jace and now Adrian included in the family. Only one to find a plus one for Adam was my lovely assistant Sarah at my work who was luckily free on my wedding day. Sarah was not shy at all. She jumped for joy after I told her that there’s a young, single man around her age that was needing a plus 1 and he was family to me and they would get along great. 

The wedding day finally arrived, July 24th, 2018 and my wedding crew looked as if they were models in a bridal magazine. All the bridal party wore matching dresses with different shades of green, which was my favorite color and as the bride, I had on a blush pink strapless ballgown with some gold trimmings in the details and our bouquet of flowers had all my favorites with some green hints in it. The groomsmen had on matching tuxedos with the matching green ties to associate with the bridesmaids and my matron of honor Marie had on a pastel green floor-length dress matching Theo’s best man Markus’s suit and tie.

As the day commenced and the crew walked down the aisle in the beautiful church, I was escorted by Adam who gave me away, and I was finally joined in holy matrimony with my husband-to-be Theo. We exchanged our vows and made our promises to each other as husband and wife, everyone was crying happy tears and I knew then and there I would be the luckiest woman alive. The reception was located at the hotel where I worked and in the private hall was decorated exactly how I envisioned it. Glamorous and vintage looking with all the trimmings and everything my husband and I planned out. We all partied until the early morning and I had the small bridal party gathered around and Shauna caught the bouquet and she was now next in line to be wed.

A week later, my husband and I took our honeymoon to Hawaii and into Bora Bora, Fiji and the Caribbeans for 3 weeks. We had such a fantastic time and we took a lot of pictures with plenty of memories to be shared. When we returned back to Vienna to rejoin our crew, a few days later  I started feeling odd symptoms that my husband didn’t have and I got sick every day for a while. I privately went to get Marie to run to the closest pharmacy and buy my essentials I needed asap.

Chapter 4 to be continued… SOON…

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Main characters:

Sarah – Felicia
Kathy – Shauna
Vera – Charlotte
Adam – Markus
Cale – Theo
Sean – Jace

Two new characters: Jeanie – Marie  & Ryan- Adam

Chapter 2

2 years later and so many things have been going on with our amazing crew. Markus and Theo have been working on their music for a while; Charlotte has been running her own B&B down in the south of Alabama ya’ll; Shauna has been busy with her own personal things back home in Ohiiiio; Marie has had an adorable baby boy Wade and keeping busy with her job on the side; Jace has been a super-dad/ghost hunter fighting crime to save the world from evil spirits and keeping up with a teenage son Adam whose just trying to have a “normal life as a teen”.

That being said from our amazing crew, Felicia here has been busy working in a luxurious hotel in Vienna working as a receptionist. One night while I’m working my shift, I get a strange phone call from Theo’s management to set up a few rooms in a private sector with a back entrance. That was all done and the next day during my shift, I see a very good looking and extremely tall man come in the entrance that looked so familiar. “Hi I’m Theo. I’ve heard so much about you and I know you follow my band “Art of Dying”.  My manager Benjamin Burnley tells me that you have some rooms aside for us in your hotel. I would also need to make some special requests to add 6 additional rooms for my special guests and also a luxurious suite with a view of the city on the top floor, since a little birdy told me you are a fan of our music. and after your shift is over, please wear something fancy that’s not your work clothes and meet me back here.”

That same night after my shift was over, I go change into a sexy green dress with my hair all done up and my makeup done, which looked like a professional artist did, and I go to the entrance and I find Theo wearing my favorite color dressy shirt and pants waiting to escort me to the parking lot and said that I had to close my eyes and he’d guide me there. I heard a very familiar voice and felt a very warm hug and I heard “Okay Felicia, you can open your eyes.” I’m then star-struck to see that my idol and inspiration Markus is standing right in front of me with the biggest grin on his face with his beautiful wife Marie by his side and with her southern accent she says “Hey doll, I’m Marie, Markus’ other half and oh my gosh, it’s such a great pleasure to meet ya’ll. I have a few other surprises who are dying to meet you finally.” 

Just as I pictured them in my mind what Charlotte, Shauna, Jace, Adam and Marie looked like, came to life. Shauna was my twin red-headed gal who had an accent from the south being from Ohio and she and I became really close friends. Charlotte was an adorable little southern charm angel, married to Jace and standing there was their step-son Adam who was thrilled to be there too by their side. Jace stuck out as the tallest one of the bunch with his Irish charming accent and looks, 6 ft 6 towering over his 2 best friends (Markus and Theo) and myself of course who was a shortie 5 ft 3 red-headed troublesome woman.

 I guess you can say I had secrets of my own that will be revealed. What the others didn’t know was that while Theo had a lot of time off, he and I had been serious for a few years and been dating a lot with the whole long-distance relationship. All the others knew he had been acting a little odd that night, and out onf the corner of my eye, I see Theo walking towards me with that huge twinkle in his eye and he looked nervous. Everybody knew what he was up to and he totally caught me off-guard and bent down on one knee and with these words he said “Felicia, from the moment we met, you stole my heart. There’s not a day that’s gone by that I haven’t stopped loving you and constantly thought about you. Markus and Marie knew that you were the one when I kept talking about you all the time to them, and saw that I was finally happy and found my life partner, my best friend, and hopefully my wife. Felicia, from here on out, I am asking you these words “WILL YOU MARRY ME?”

I looked at Theo with tears running down my face and replied “WHAT TOOK YOU SO LONG YOU GOOF? I knew from the moment we met we were complete, and I have always thought about you every second of every day. I promise to love you and honor you from this day forward and I will be honored for you to be my husband.” Theo placed the huge 15 karat canary yellow engagement ring on my finger and I jumped in his arms and gave him a big lingering kiss and said “I love you and I am proud to be your rocker wife-to-be”

 

Stay tuned for more on Chapter 3 coming…SOON!!!

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Healing Within!

If you are reading this, you’ve survived your life until this point. Heartbreaks, Losses, Betrayals, trauma. And here you are. You go fierce warrior. YOU are awesome.

Who said that we all live perfect lives without any struggles and every day tasks? If someone can answer me this, then you clearly haven’t had any issues to deal with and you have everything handed to you on a silver platter. I can honestly speak for myself and say that my life isn’t perfect at all. I go through so many difficult challenges and struggles, that I start to question my sanity level. Am I normal? What is my purpose here on earth? What does my higher power have in store for me when I pass away? All these questions float in my head and then I feel my anxiety levels rise and I start to get panic attacks.

I have had my fair share of heartbreaks, losses, betrayals and definitely traumatic events that have scarred me for life. Sure, I have people I can count on for friendly advice, a shoulder to cry on, and that’s great; but while they’re doing all that, I’m the one that is still suffering in silence and then I ask myself “are they really concerned about me, or telling me anything I want to hear an talking to a wall because I am the only one who can fix myself?” To give you an honest answer, they ARE concerned and worried about me and since I am very stubborn as a Leo, I tend to steer clear and think my problems will sort itself out, and then I end up hurting myself emotionally.

Mental health is such a huge concern for myself and for others out there and I now understand that suffering in silence only ends badly. It can be caused by drugs, alcohol, depression, suicide, divorce, the list goes on. If we can all take just a few minutes to breathe and chill out, go for a walk, meditate (if that’s your thing), listen to music and sing at the top of your lungs, whatever it may be, FIND SOMETHING TO GET YOU TO HEAL IN A POSITIVE WAY. 

I speak from experience when I say that I am a victim of mental health and dealing with an alcoholic father for the past 15 years, and for the past few years, he has gone to rehab three times and failed to complete the program, and thought he can do better. I have been the only person in my family that has been trying to get him help and he pretends he is doing great, but only I know he is suffering in silence through his alcohol. Pretty soon I will be so exhausted to get him the help he needs that I will want to give up on him, and he has to hit rock bottom and realize what damage he’s done to not only himself, but his family who has been slowly giving up on him.

It was hard for me to talk about my personal life and about mental health for the longest time because I thought that all my problems and worrries would go away on its own. I now understand WHAT they all are and now I am going to seek help by seeing a therapist and working my way to a better and healthier lifestyle, without the negativity thrown at me, I WILL finally breathe again.

I have made a vow to myself to slowly get better, healthier, find projects that will keep me busy long-term, such as writing my blogs, writing and creating my own new music, finding hobbies outside of the house to get me active and meet new people. I NEVER said it will done overnight. I am taking as much time to find myself again and I WANT to be more positive.

I have a HUGE list of people to thank for keeping me going and never wanting me to give up. ADAM & JEANIE GONTIER; CALE GONTIER; SEAN ARCHER; SABRINA (MY BESTIE); KATHY BACHAND; VERA CASE; GEORGE PSEVDIOTIS; RAVEN MACKEY; OBVIOUSLY MY FAMILY BECAUSE WITHOUT THEM I WOULDN’T BE HERE; MY LIST IS ENDLESS. Without all of you here pushing me and guiding me in the right direction; I wouldn’t be doing half the things I’ve accomplished today, and I would have been a completely different person and no one would recognize me. The world is a scary place full of the unknown, and it’s up to YOU to make a statement and be out there and make a name for yourself.

I would like to personally thank Adam Gontier for your faith, kindness, passion, patience, and of course your amazing words of wisdom you have given me for the past few years to help me be the strong-willed woman I am today. You have such an amazing heart and I am forever grateful to be alive and healthy because of you. There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think of the wonderful, amazingly talented artist and human being you are, and it’s all because of you that I am still writing my blogs, starting my own music that I have been struggling with for 3 years, and you keep pushing and motivating me to never give up, never surrender. IF THERE’S AN IDOL AND INSPIRATION I WILL FOREVER CHERISH, IT’S DEFINITELY YOU. YOU ARE THE THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE, SUNSHINE AFTER A CLOUDY DAY, I CAN GO ON, AND I WILL AWLAYS SAY THAT YOU ARE MY #1 PERSON!

I will like to leave you readers with a few quotes for thought to take into consideration and think before taking action.

“Nothing in the universe can stop you from letting go and starting over.” ~ Guy Finley

 “We must be willing to let go of the life we’ve planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.” ~ Joseph Campbell

“I’m thankful for my struggle because without it I wouldn’t have stumbled across my strength.” ~ Alex Elle

“Every single day, do something that makes your heart sing.” ~ Marcia Wieder

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